I want so badly some days
to be the kind of person who keeps a gratitude journal
and believes in manifestations, who believes
that if I throw myself on the mercy of the universe
the universe will be merciful, that happiness is as simple
as mirror work, which people tell me is not easy,
because who can look in the mirror for three minutes
and say I love you, I love you, I love you
without bursting into tears over all the ways
we have not loved ourselves.
Jennifer Saunders, from When the Guest Speaker Told Us
